Salam and hello, dear friends 🙂
Wow, it’s been more than a year since I last wrote something here.
When I first launched this site + store, the focus was mainly to keep the store and products going, launch after launch. The initial excitement slowly turned into something I did not see coming – burnout. In the beginning, it was difficult and painful to even acknowledge the experience. I wanted to keep going, but I started to resent the drawings that I made. I reached a point where if I didn’t like it, who else would, right?
So I stopped. I stopped making things to sell, I stopped recording videos of my processes, I stopped looking for projects, and I stopped working on my portfolio too. Forcing myself to clean up my daily routine was a really hard thing to do. I sure got the house running, I was still functioning, but mostly exhausted to my very core.
I threw myself into different things, which are now part of my life – morning walks, reading lots of non-fiction, learned to communicate my feelings better and ask for help, new hobbies like crocheting and making TikToks on the highlights of my days (like a gratitude diary, if that makes sense), and even went back to school. It’s been slightly more than a year, and seeing my favourite illustrators online showcasing their new books and also publishing videos to help amateurs get out there somehow felt like lighting up an old flame.
It is now I realised that I am not quitting and I don’t hate drawing, I simply need to take care of myself first. I am excited (I rarely was, so this is news, hahah) to be experimenting with new traditional mediums for the upcoming Peachtober hosted by Sha’an of @furrylittlepeach. Don’t get me wrong, I love digital art, but I am so bad at making beautiful textures from it. With traditional mediums, it comes so naturally for me.
I want to say thank you for coming by here and reading till the end. It means a lot to me. I hope to write again soon. See you <3